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17 April 2012 @ 04:27 pm
Fic: Apart But Not Forgotten (Gwen)  
Title: Apart But Not Forgotten
Author: ella_rose88
Pairing/Character: Gwen, mentions of A/G and G/L
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 978
Warnings: Set during series 4 episode 10 & 11
Prompt: Apart
Link to Table? Can be found HERE!
Summary: She may be gone, but Camelot is still with her.
A/N: This was written for my good pal rubberglue to cheer her up since she is unwell and sad. I hope you like it Piper and it cheers you up! Though on second thoughts it might not cheer you up. But I can’t help it; it was what my muse decided!

Also please note: This has only been beta’ed by myself. So all spelling mistakes or grammatical errors are my fault.

Part ONE || Part TWO || Part THREE || Part FOUR || Part FIVE ||



“I don't want to see you dead, Guinevere.”

And Gwen stands there hoping that he will forgive her, that he will believe her words. That she loves him and that what happened was a mistake -- a huge one, one that she wishes with her whole heart that she could change if she could turn back time. She has no idea what made her meet up with Lancelot, what made her kiss him. For she is in love with Arthur and wants nothing more than to marry him and have his children.

Gwen can’t believe her ears when he does not believe her, “But I don't want to see you.”

“I cannot look on you every day. You will leave Camelot at first light…”

I start to call out “Arthur…” But it’s too late as my love announces his decision. “You return upon pain of death.” Gwen cannot believe it. Though she understands the heart break seeing her and Lancelot together caused him, she did not think he would do this. That he would banish her and force her to leave her home, her friends and family. But most importantly, him.

“No.” She pleads to him. And while he apologises when she asks him where she will go, she cannot stop the uncontrollable sobs, tears that flee her -- leaving the last wall of strength in her to come crashing down. So much so, that there is nothing left to hold her up, so she collapse onto the floor….

Gwen suddenly wakes up -- tears pricking her eyes, her sheets tangled around her (no doubt caused by all the tossing and turning) as she tries to regain her breathing. It’s the third night in a row that she has dreamt this – the night her life fell apart. Oddly enough, when she fled Camelot to Merica to stay with a friend of Gaius’s, she did not dream -- but then she rarely slept. Too focused on getting to her destination.

Then she finally arrived at Albert and Frain’s home and they welcomed her with open arms – though she did not fully go into the details of why she had left Camelot. For she knew what would happen if they learnt the truth. They would kick her out for she was a whore, an adulterer. Even though she was not married to the King, no doubt people still viewed her that way. So she kept her life in Camelot a secret and instead focused on helping the couple with their farm -- which they appreciated greatly seeing as they were getting on and had no children of their own.

Deciding that it was unlikely that she could go back to sleep -- though it is still dawn -- Gwen gets up, goes to the kitchen area and gets herself a goblet of water. For all of her tossing and turning made her built up some sweat. Then grabbing her shawl from the back of the door, Gwen steps outside and finding the outdoor chair she sits upon it.

Gazing up upon sky, Gwen watches the fading stars and moon disappear -- while the sun replaces it slowly rising and sending all sorts of colours to appear on the horizon – orange, pinks, purple and blues light up the sky. Gwen sighs a little dejectedly – for watching the sky always made her think about home, her brother, her friends – the people she was forced to leave behind. But most of all it makes her think of Arthur and wonder if he is alright or if he had moved on and married someone else. Though she knows that it was her fault for the way things ended, she cannot stop the nagging little feeling in the back of her mind that is mad at Arthur. Not only him, but also at her friends and her brother. For they should all know her, know the type of person she is.

For the following days after she was banished gave Gwen time – time to reflect and think over the past few days. It was in this time that Gwen came to a conclusion -- that maybe Lancelot was not all that he seemed and that maybe she was not herself. That maybe she was enchanted. For she remembered the feelings that rose in her the moment Lancelot slipped the bracelet upon her wrist, and though she was too busy at the time crying, she remembered the moment she threw if off in the dungeons. How everything felt much clearer and she had full clarity on what she wanted -- to marry Arthur and that her feelings for Lancelot were gone and left in the past and the world of the ‘what ifs’. She knew that she was enchanted and yet she did not know what to do about it.

Hours later, Frain comes out of the house, “Morning my dear!” she greets Gwen warmly. Gwen returns her friendly greeting before Frain informs her that breakfast is ready inside. Following Frain, Gwen returns to the house and sits down to eat. But as soon as she goes to sit down the smell of the chicken unsettles her, causing a huge wave of nausea to hit her. Leaving her no option but to run behind the screen and throw her guts out.

Minutes later, Frain appears by the screen with a fresh cloth to wipe her face. “I’m afraid, my dear, there is no use in pretending anymore.” Frain then places her hand gently upon Gwen’s back, softly rubbing circles to help calm her down.

And Gwen knows that she is right. That soon enough she will have to admit to it. For while she may be away from Camelot and everyone she loves there, and be apart from him, she carries an important piece with her. A piece that she will never be apart from.


Part ONE || Part TWO || Part THREE || Part FOUR || Part FIVE ||

As always comments are ♥ and appreciated!
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
rubbergluerubberglue on April 17th, 2012 07:31 am (UTC)
Aww this was sad! But thank you. I am going to presume a happy ending later.
M: A/G :: hug gifella_rose88 on April 17th, 2012 10:23 pm (UTC)
Yeah sorry but like I said, it was what my muse decided!

And of course they was a happy ending ♥! Though I would have made Arthur work for it a little...
Ellefabyenn on April 17th, 2012 05:11 pm (UTC)
Love the twist at the end! ♥
M: A/G :: 4x01 icon by me!ella_rose88 on April 17th, 2012 10:23 pm (UTC)
Glad you liked it!
a_g_doren: CatsPawBearClawa_g_doren on April 18th, 2012 05:01 pm (UTC)
Very nice and I like the open ending. This isn't a tangle that can just be sorted out and left behind. So definitely a good ending.
M: Gwen :: 4x11ella_rose88 on April 18th, 2012 10:46 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it. I didn't want to have a complete ending and left it open in case I wanted to write more. I've had a few people ask me to so I might definitely write a sequel.

Thank you!
bluemagicrose: Angel DOTEbluemagicrose on April 19th, 2012 01:59 am (UTC)
So...that's not the end...is it? I hope not.

Lovely story. :)
M: A/G :: sexy grins (4x08)ella_rose88 on April 19th, 2012 02:07 am (UTC)
hehehe :P
LOL well I left it open at the end for a reason, in case I did get inspired. Since I've signed up to do a theme table it's very likely I will continue it with some other themes. So don't worry so much!

Thanks so much <3333!

Edited at 2012-04-19 02:07 am (UTC)
Ashley LPalilypea on April 21st, 2012 02:08 am (UTC)
This is an excellent way of writing Gwen, I love her inner voice in this and the bit of optimism at the end.
M: King & Queen gifella_rose88 on April 21st, 2012 04:03 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! I'm glad that you liked how I portrayed Gwen in this because I know that while people hated Arthur banishing her, from how Angel portrayed it, Gwen blamed a lot of what happened on herself. But I also wanted Gwen to be a little disappointed that Arthur banished her.

Yeah well I might be continuing this story some more!
arthurgwen888 on May 10th, 2012 02:08 am (UTC)
Re: apart but not forgotten
Do hope the enchantment comes out and Gwen's name is cleared, but Arthur has to pay for banishing her. Gwen can not allow him to treat her like his doormat anymore. Time to get even.
M: A/G :: naked gif 1ella_rose88 on May 10th, 2012 11:21 pm (UTC)
Re: apart but not forgotten
Thanks for the comment ♥!

I won't say anything about the enchantment being revealed in my fic verse because I plan on continuing it. But I would love for it to came out on the show that is for sure.

As for Arthur 'paying' for me it's more that he has to realize the mistake he made in not realizing how odd Gwen was acting and for banishing her away from her friends and family. I wouldn't say that he treated her as a 'doormat' but he definitely crossed the line in banishing her from her home. Though, I wouldn't say no to Gwen making Arthur work for it that is for sure!
elsewhere87: Gwen long live the queenelsewhere87 on June 30th, 2012 04:19 pm (UTC)
Ah, I love the flow of this, the strong emotion and the description of her surroundings. I always enjoy so much when you delve into Gwen's thoughts because you write her with such devotion and feeling. And I love the medieval feel of how people would look upon her if they knew what she had 'done' to Arthur because that's very real.

This is so interesting that she's thinking about it as an enchantment. It leaves so many great openings where to take it and I look forward to seeing where this goes.

Sad, but lovely piece, with what Gwen usually has, hope.
M: A/G :: I love you (4x09)ella_rose88 on July 1st, 2012 11:36 pm (UTC)
Naww I'm so glad that you love the strong emotion and description of her surroundings. I've very much one of those people that is in touch with their emotions and good at picking up on others (I actually want to study psychology) so it makes me so happy that I write Gwen with such devotion. Especially since some people have not liked how Gwen was treated and how she reacted, for me it was very much within her character to react that way. To blame herself because at the time she knows the heart break she has caused Arthur.

Yes I will definitely be exploring the story line with the bracelet later on when I have the time!

Thanks so much for the comment ♥!